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Love in Memories – Note One

I spontaneously wrote this a few days ago in 20 minutes. I didn’t want to edit, because I wanted to just pour my thoughts out, and leave it the way it turned out. I decided to share it and I hope to share for notes from it as I continue exploring this topic.

Title: Love in memories


A ripping pain overflows your veins, while you sit alone in agony. Reminiscing the fruitful moments and the lavishing gifts you once possessed.

 Where did all go?

You blame yourself for the present outcome. The guilt of what you lost, and where you could be right now does not leave your mind. It hurts, it strikes the deepest sorrow in your soul.

Where are you now?

Everything is empty and the world doesn’t make sense. The place where you are sitting is where everything will come together.

How will you move forward?

There is no clear starting point, but you can begin to gather leftover,s of any will you have to live. This is how you will resurface – or so you think – but all you have left to do is decide whether or not it’s worth moving forward.

You affirm to yourself that it doesn’t end here, but you have nothing around, except yourself. Where are you catching the inspiration from? There is one thing that you didn’t think you could count on, and that is your memories. You believe all the memories you have serve no purpose, because all you want to remember are the bad memories. There is one thing you overlooked and that is the love that you can find in them.



<3<3<3 Love, Ellie <3<3<3

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I’m sure it happens a lot, but how do your conversations in the ‘real world’ compare to the ones in social media?

I’m a very talkative in person. I have so much energy, my co-workers have banned me from drinking coffee. You know, sometimes I even joke and tell them I am drinking coffee, when I’m drinking tea. You should see their faces! Enough horror for the next 1200 Halloweens.

I only talk a lot with people I’m comfortable with. Otherwise, my answers are short and polite. However, when it comes to social media, my lack of words defines my replies, even with my closest friends (depends on the situation, though). Well, I guess this blog doesn’t count. I do have a lot to say here. Haha.

But when you do reply online, do you do it the way you would in the real world? I guess you wouldn’t say ‘LOL’ or ‘BHAHAHA’. Can you imagine how it would sound? I do have to admit, there have been times where I’ve been tempted to say ‘LOL’ instead of laughing (that’s when I joined Facebook Anonymous). Oh, the horror! I’m quite surprised of the things I say or do not say.

In the real world vs Social Media. The conversations, I’ve seen/heard.

Photo of a cat, in the real world: Awww, that’s cute! I want one!

Photo of a cat, in social media: THAT IS THE CUTEST THING EVER, OH MY GOODNESS!! LIKE I’M SOO EXCITED. I CAN SHOW YOU MORE!!! =posts gallery of cat pictures=

Photo of your favourite celebrity, in the real world: Oh I know him/her! I’ve seen all his/her movies. Quite good looking! =drool=

Photo of your favourite celebrity, in social media: Ohhhh myyy gooodness!!! What an awesome piece of meat!!! I’m ovulating!!! (if you do ovulate).

Ovulating? Who would say such thing, right? (ahem ahem ahem). Fine, I confess. I’ve been guilty of saying such things in social media, but not in public (unless I whisper it).

Pay attention to how you behave online and offline, you’d be surprised of the things you wouldn’t dare to say online 🙂



^^^This is not a picture of a celebrity, but it is of a seagull that thinks it’s a celebrity.


Of course! The world sort of rules me today!