Love in Memories – Note One

I spontaneously wrote this a few days ago in 20 minutes. I didn’t want to edit, because I wanted to just pour my thoughts out, and leave it the way it turned out. I decided to share it and I hope to share for notes from it as I continue exploring this topic.

Title: Love in memories

 

A ripping pain overflows your veins, while you sit alone in agony. Reminiscing the fruitful moments and the lavishing gifts you once possessed.

 Where did all go?

You blame yourself for the present outcome. The guilt of what you lost, and where you could be right now does not leave your mind. It hurts, it strikes the deepest sorrow in your soul.

Where are you now?

Everything is empty and the world doesn’t make sense. The place where you are sitting is where everything will come together.

How will you move forward?

There is no clear starting point, but you can begin to gather leftover,s of any will you have to live. This is how you will resurface – or so you think – but all you have left to do is decide whether or not it’s worth moving forward.

You affirm to yourself that it doesn’t end here, but you have nothing around, except yourself. Where are you catching the inspiration from? There is one thing that you didn’t think you could count on, and that is your memories. You believe all the memories you have serve no purpose, because all you want to remember are the bad memories. There is one thing you overlooked and that is the love that you can find in them.

 

 

<3<3<3 Love, Ellie <3<3<3

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My latest Poem: “Reaching for the tallest branch”

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The words disperse,

and her heart rapidly beats;

as she reaches for the tallest branch.

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It’s not that it is unknown,

it is that she realizes what she once dreamed about

became her present reality.

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The touch, the unbroken promises,

and the assurance that they are whole. 

She exhales, she hopes,

as she reaches for the tallest branch.

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The denial that absorbs her insecurities,

she knows in her mind she will fall again,

what can reassure her?

Just herself, as she reaches for the tallest branch.

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and the fear of freeing her patched up heart. 

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An apparition that signifies the start of a journey,

that is freeing her patched up heart.

After many failed attempts at healing damaged chapters.

What, if anything, is left for her to give? 

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An unfair question to herself.

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It is this moment when she becomes aware,

that everything she is has never left

and the emotional beating was the wall she created.

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What now?

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She once looked in the mirror, in a dream, as an elder.

She faced fear, regret, everything she didn’t want to become.

It haunted her, until she set on to stop it from being her reality.

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She lets go,

she opens up,

she loves again.

She reaches the tallest branch.

<3<3<3 Love, Ellie <3<3<3

 

Writing 101: Unlock the Mind

For my first assignment, I’m supposed to free write for 20 minutes and see what I can randomly come up with; no edits, no rewrites, just raw. Let’s see the clock…and here I go.

I don’t even know what to write, but I thought I’d share two random things I did today – if you know me, random is my middle name- which don’t make the best of stories, but they’ll do for the purpose of this assignment. Hey, there isn’t even a purpose, but to write for 20 minutes without stopping. Fine, they didn’t say you shouldn’t stop, but I am giving myself that extra task. I feel I should go back to the link and read, but I can’t stop.

Story #1: This isn’t really a story, but what I go through during this weather change. I walk to work most of the time, and the weather has been so inconsistent that I have found myself bringing two jackets to work; a winter one, and a light coat. It is pretty hilarious to my colleagues, because they always ask why would I bring two jackets. I always explain that it’s because I don’t know how the weather is going to change. What if it changes all of a sudden and it gets very windy and drops below zero? – Okay, I know what you’re thinking, and don’t give me that look. We all know the weather network is rarely accurate. It’s the job you still get to keep after a thousand mistakes (not hating). And, the end. That’s it. That’s the big story; I bring two coats to work.

Story #2: I was so tired today (hopefully not catching a cold).  I went in the kitchen to fill a small container with corn chips, because I wanted a quick snack that wasn’t vegetables or fruits. I dropped one to the ground, just one, and guess what I wanted to do with it. On a regular non-tiring day, I would quickly throw it in the trash bin, but not this day. Well, to be precise, I THOUGHT about doing this. Instead of walking to the trash bin – it was in the kitchen and not far at all, but my brain made it seem like I had to marathon my way to it – I wanted to take the corn chip, walk to the front door and toss it out to the front yard. My logic at that moment? None whatsoever. I guess that corn chip would have fed a squirrel or a raccoon, but it still would’ve been quite the sight for my neighbours. If any of them would have happened to be recording, I would have ended on Youtube for extreme laziness/randomness. I can see this being some cult horror story, ‘Penguin of the Corn Chip,’ or a triumphant story of a girl who saves her neighbour wild animals in ‘Lord of the Chips’.

And my fellow bloggers, that’s my 20 minutes. Savour the moment and your wasted time reading this :p. Okay, it can’t be wasted. I’m sure you have learned something from this.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Happy WordPress Anniversary to me!

My wordpress one year Anniversary was a few days ago :p and I just realized this! As a celebration, I took my blog out to dinner and drank red wine. My fingers typed the night away and it was a very romantic-technological moment.

I need to return to blogging again. I haven’t felt inspiration lately, not even randomness. I guess this post counts as randomness and it will not inspire you in any way – unless you want a quick read in the bathroom.

Anyways, here’s a photoshop by me. RDJ and LOTR!

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

My random story of the day

Hello fellow Middle-Earthlings…wait, wrong world…Let’s try this again…Hello, fellow bloggers! Hope the week has been treating you great :). As you know, Snow White is jealous of me when it comes to animal interactions (ha ha just kidding). But, animals around here love to appear out of nowhere and do funny things. Like I’ve always said, the leftover food in the trash cans must be good here.

Today, I was walking home from work when I noticed two birds staring at the road. One of them was standing on a garbage bin and the other on the sidewalk. The former just stood on the bin, while the latter carefully started walking to the road as soon as the cars passed. Why? Well, there was food in the middle of the road. What amazed me was that he timed it perfectly, because he was able to walk back as the light turned green and the cars approached. Unfortunately, for his garbage bin friend, he didn’t bring it any of the road food for him.

 

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

What’s the weirdest/creepiest pick-up line you’ve ever been told?

I’m glad I’m not a creeper magnet, but sometimes it’s hard to avoid. Let me tell you what happened years ago:

I was walking home from a reunion and I was a block away, when some random guy started to walk alongside me. He started with the usual, “isn’t this a beautiful day?” (total cheesefest) and then proceeded to introduce himself (we’ll call him, ‘creepo’).

Creepo: My name is Creepo, what’s yours?

Of course I wasn’t going to give him my real name

Me: Er…Veronica

Creepo: Nice to meet you. So, what do you do?

Because I know some creepers may snap, I just played along.

Me: Psychology student (total lie)

Creepo: Nice, where?

Total stalker vibe

Me: =random university I’ve never been to=

Creepo: That’s very nice

At this point, I was almost home, but I wasn’t going to show him where I lived, so I diverted to the nearby supermarket. At this point, I told him I had to go get some things for my family (so if he had a plan to hurt me, he knew they’d chase after him), so while I waited for the light, we said good-bye.

Creepo: Do you need any help?

Me: Nope. I’m good.

Creepo: Well, nice to meet you. Hope to see you around. Perhaps, you can examine my brain one day =using flirtatious voice=

Really? You just said that? 

Me: Ha…yea…okay, good-bye

I never saw him again :p.

 

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Random Photo(s) of the Day #16 – Inside a water bottle

I was feeling curious, so I took photos of the inside of my water bottle full of water and ice! It’s amazing how something so simple can be transformed into a different world. My friend thought it was an ocean wave!

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Random Photo of the Day #15 – Encounter with a squirrel

I haven’t snapped photos of squirrels in a long time. In fact, I forgot that I ever took any – that is until I found these photos. Squirrels are very fast, unless they freeze in fear when you approach them. Today, I saw a squirrel munching on some goodies next to a fence. I tried to pass it without it noticing, but of course that didn’t work. It stared at me for a second and I thought it was going to jump on me. I stood still and it tried to run under the fence, but it wouldn’t find an entry point, so it tried to run to the opposite side of the street, but then a car drove by, so it tried to go back under the fence, but failed again. It froze for a second on the sidewalk and then as soon as the car was gone, it ran to the opposite side.

It is true, a lot of animals are more afraid of you than you are of them. Poor thing probably thought I was going to step on it. I just stood and watched as the cuteness unfolded. 

Here are some pictures of a squirrel from a long time ago! 

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Bathroom call at random times

Hi everyone! Hope you’re doing great :D! Today, I want to post a list regarding bathroom calls (because we’ve all been there). This is basically how it goes: you feel like going to the bathroom, when you can’t get to the bathroom right away. Well, I hope this doesn’t only happen to me o.O

1. You’re standing in line at your favourite store about to pay, when the feeling hits. Usually, the cashier won’t notice until you start shaking your Debit/Credit card as you insert it in the machine.

 

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2. When you’re about to eat. The bathroom urge does not discriminate against any type of foods.  Sometimes it even encourages you to drink water.

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3. When you’re at the movie theatre in the middle of the climax. You know, because your body likes to ruin your life.  Oh and to add insult to injury, you suddenly get thirsty!

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4. When you come home from a long walk. It doesn’t matter how long it was, or how many times you stopped on the way. But, as soon as you reach the front door and start looking for your keys, you feel like going to the bathroom. It will feel as if you had not gone for the whole day. Of course, this rush will not help you find your keys faster, and you’ll drop everything you have on the ground and run to the bathroom..and it won’t come out.

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5. As soon as you get in the shower. You had all the time in the world before you went in, but nope, your body likes to play tricks on you.

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6. At a family reunion. You know you’re going to have to go the bathroom in a few minutes, but instead of going you just wait for 5 minutes…big mistake! The bathrooms are taken at the same time. The despair and regret hits you, and you feel like unleashing a waterfall in your backyard – you actually consider doing the number one business in a bag and throw it away – that’s how desperate you are!

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So, when does the ‘feeling’ hit you?

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Random Photo of the Day #14…with a Story Starter…and an Ellie update

Hello everyone! How’s it going? I don’t have a lot to update on, other than I went back to work this week. It’s been awesome so far, but I am exhausted! Tomorrow (Sunday, you know it might be Monday where you are right now) I shall just relax and do nothing…okay, I’ll clean my room and things like that. That’s all I have to say. I’m just happy I get to live another day :).

Today’s photo of the day reminds me of the beauty of this planet and how cheerful nature can be. Look at all those colours! I just love to stare at this photo — you know, in a non-creepy way — and it always inspires me whenever I look at it. Enjoy and don’t forget to unroll the love! 😀

Story Starter: I love…

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤