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Daily Prompt: Witness Protection

The Daily Post asks: When you do something scary or stressful — bungee jumping, public speaking, etc. — do you prefer to be surrounded by friends or by strangers? Why?

My parents are opposite; my dad hates heights and speed, but my mum craves it (which is why she wants to go paragliding in the summer). This set me up for a whirlwind of emotions, because I crave speed and adventure, but at the same time I am a chicken clucking and clinging to my soul. I never succumbed to peer pressure when my friends and I went on rollercoasters, and I only agreed to go on them, because deep down I wanted to so bad, even if it meant fainting in the middle of the ride (which I didn’t). Because I’m not a big fan of crowds, I prefer to have at least a friend or family member with me, for emotional support (or emotional destruction if they encourage me to go on a ride of terror).

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Daydreaming is my unpaid internship

I have shared the first page of my novel with a few friends and family and have received positive feedback. The common question is, “How did you come up with all this? How did you think of the names?” The answer is, daydreams and dreams have become my unpaid internship. I intentionally daydream and dream my entire novel, in order to put realism in it. I’m basically creating the entire world and scenarios in my head, as I go on with my daily life. I can lucid dream, and this allows me to continue working on it while I’m sleep. I don’t know how I do it, but thank goodness I can.

I came up with the name for my main character while I was in the bathroom. It was definitely not my intention to do so, but ideas just come and go, and the name was so good I didn’t want to flush it down the toilet (pun totally intended). I’m not proofreading at the moment, because it is wasting too much time, and I want to make sure I have the story written down. There are a few holes I need to patch, but I have learned not to worry about the final details, in case the plot changes along the way. I have learned to control my daydreaming, because if I want to pay the bills right now, I need to be able to work with society. I used to zone out a lot, but now I only do when I allow myself to do so. It isn’t easy, because my novel is part of my life and it is hard to stop the ideas flowing in, but I’m managing. I have to admit, there are days where it kills me inside when I don’t pay attention to my writing voice, or when I cannot daydream, and it does cause me stress, but I use my days off to let the dreams escape and the words come to fruition on paper (or Word document). It doesn’t make it 100% better, but I have learned to accept it and to be grateful for what I have.

I believe to a certain extent that my daydreaming is a symptom of me being an Empath (read this website) and that’s why I live to dream and shut down if something won’t let me do it. The reason I’m writing this post is because I have discovered this recently (specifically, yesterday). Events in my life finally make sense, dots have been connected. Some people thought I was crazy when I predicted deaths in my family, or when I knew how they felt before they told me what was happening. It is not scientifically proven, but I can tell you all the traits you read on that website are mostly true for me (the meat and antique ones do not apply to me entirely nor depression). But, this probably explains why I don’t do well in crowds and why I don’t like strangers rubbing off on me when they pass by. If I have to be in a crowd, for example when I go out with friends, then I do it without complaining. It doesn’t mean I cry and scream if I’m around too many people, but I get tired by the end of the day. I don’t know where I can go from here, but whether I’m an Empath or not, at least now I know I’m not the only one with those traits :).

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Robert Downey Jr. approves of me!

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

 

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A to Z challenge reflections

This A to Z challenge has been a great way to share my thoughts and try to motivate others. My theme was to write a life lesson for each post. Hopefully, I was able to inspire other bloggers out there :). The only thing I didn’t like was that I couldn’t ‘follow’ other bloggers, because their blog was on blogspot, and I don’t have an account there. Other than that, I really don’t have anything negative to say. Yes, it was a challenge, and sometimes I didn’t know what I was going to try about. It was a great thrill and I hope to join other challenges in the future :). Here’s a list of all my entries for you to read if you haven’t already. Go through it, share it, cry, eat ice cream, dance, do whatever you want :p. Thank you to everyone who reads and likes what I write and I encourage each and every one of you to never lose your voice.

 

A – A quitter: I’m quitting writing

B- Because animals are hilarious creatures

C- Countless Power

D- Defying Designs

E-Emotions

F- Friendships

G-Growing

H-Home

I-Inspirational

J-Joy

K-Kissing Kite

L-Luxury

M- Mother Nature

N-Night

O-Obscure Mentality

P-Project

Q-Quaker

R-Regret

S-Stench

T-Tired T-Rex

U-Undo

V-Villain

W-Wisdom

X-Xhaustion

Y-You Are

Z-Zone

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Will the weather just stop PMS’ng? Thank you.

Please, don’t get me wrong, the weather has definitely improved here in Ontario, but it’s still not quite where it needs to be. Last time I checked, this is Spring, not the Fall. The rain hasn’t been too bad, but the winds, oh my! I appreciate it when it’s warm and windy, because my face doesn’t turn into an icicle, but I want the high speed winds to stop just for a few days.

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My life doesn’t revolve complaining about the weather, but I just want well-behaved weather, is that too much to ask for? Well, apparently it is in this Province :p. It’s funny how when I lived in Vancouver, I had my rants over the rain, but now it’s all about the wind. Ah well, it keeps life interesting I suppose. As I mentioned before, I don’t mind when it’s windy BUT warm; however, it does cause some confusion when I’m hermit-ing in my room. The reason? When it’s windy and cloudy, the clouds will cover the sun every minute or so, and this my friends is when I don’t know whether to turn my lights on or not. If the clouds cover the sun, then it gets dark in my room, but when I’m about to switch on the lights, the clouds pass and reveal the sun again, and it feels like it’s noon when it’s only 4 pm. It becomes annoying, because it feels like someone is flickering the sunlight on and off. If this is how Mother Nature behaves when on PMS, I don’t want to know when she enters menopause…

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What has Mother Nature done to you? 

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Warm showers: Awesome, but painful to say good-bye to

Warm showers and baths are the best, but I know that as soon as I step out, it will feel like the next ice age. Nevertheless, I prepare myself mentally to overcome such temperature contrasts by stalling before I get out of the shower.

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“Just wrap a towel around,” they say, “you won’t feel cold if you do,” they say. Yeah, that doesn’t work. I’ve even tried dressing in the shower (don’t ask) and I still felt cold getting out. Bath robes work okay, but as long as there’s skin exposed, you’ll feel the cold Arctic breeze. And turning the heat on doesn’t help much either…

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Somehow, I think if I stay longer and under warmer water, it will delay the process. You know, because my mind sometimes thinks (probably denial) that time will stop everywhere and I’ll have all the time in the world to get out. I even try to come up with different issues in my head and try to solve them, just to avoid going through the temperature contrast. I know it’s not going to kill me, but before I even step in the shower, I know I’ll have to go through the painful dilemma of when it’s the best time to get out of the shower. I’m sure this isn’t helping the stereotype of women taking ages in the bathroom.

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Before I get in the shower, I make sure my clothes are ready for me to put on. Once I find the courage to end the shower session, I plan my escape to be in 5 seconds. I put my bath robe or towel on and dry as I walk…more like run…to put my clothes on. I really don’t like the temperature contrast. Here’s a tip: put your socks on first. I have to say that thanks to my eagerness to stay warm after a shower, it doesn’t take me long to try on clothes at the mall :p.

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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A kiss welcomed me home!

There’s nothing like coming home to relax and forget the stress in life. In the midst of all troubles, it is nice when I’m welcome into my house with a kiss…a Hershey’s chocolate kiss that is! It is a great alternative to eating a whole chocolate bar – there are those days when I really need to devour one, though – but it’s sweet, delicious and satisfying. It also helps that the unwrapping process does not require of your muscles, and you can start eating one in two seconds. I love anything that has chocolate, but I’m not a big fan of dark or pure chocolate; they’re too strong for me. Seriously, why is it that the healthy sweets are the ones that taste the worst? Life is twisted, I’m telling you.

Have a Happy Friday everyone! Be safe and satisfy those chocolate cravings 😀

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Writing challenge: Flash Fiction

I’ve decided to join the weekly writing challenges and here’s my take on the 300-word or less flash fiction.

 

One of them

I had ten minutes left on my break, and I decided to walk back to work. I rushed through the small crowd, in order to avoid seeing him when I passed through the main doors to my work. “Why did he come back into my life when we stopped being friends years ago?” That question unravelled in my mind the entire way. I tried to avoid making eye contact as I approached my workplace, but my anxiety grew stronger when I realized he stared as I arrived. “Wait,” he shouted. My resentful expression greeted him, but I spoke no words. I turned and tried to go inside, but time suddenly came to a stop for everyone, except for him, his friends and I.  

“What did you do?” I yelled.

“I didn’t. You did,” he smiled.

I paused in shock for a few moments, looking at the immobile crowd. I came to realize that I wasn’t who I thought I was, and that he came back to help me see that I was one of them.

 

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So, you have a crush on someone?

I admit it, when I was in High School, it was a drool-fest over the cute guys who walked in the hallways. Now, I can control it better. It’s just funny when I think about how different my reactions can be when I have a crush on someone. They’re not obvious to the guy, but my friends get a chuckle out of my silliness.

 

 Usually, I develop a crush on someone I know and talk to frequently, because I mostly fall for their personality. However, there are times when the physical aspect wins and I know right away who’s going to be in my daydreams for at least, the next couple of weeks.

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Has this ever happened to you? You crush is talking to you about how much he’s loving the new features of his car –when a guy loves his car that much, you know there is no chance of a date any time soon – and somehow in your twisted mind, you think he’s saying he loves you.

Your crush: “I love my new rims”

You: “I love you, too…I mean…them, I love them, too”.

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Sometimes, I do have a serious crush and I can’t help but to daydream constantly. I try not to stare, because I’m not creepy, so that’s why I just daydream. Thing is, even though I know it’s not true love and I know deep inside I won’t really be with him, I just tell myself, “whatever, I love him” just for the sake of delusional daydreaming.

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There’s nothing like the feeling of your crush initiating conversations with you. Have you had that feeling before? When you know he’s not really into you, but he still wants to be friends and laughs at your lame jokes? Hey, I’ll take it. I’ll have the biggest smile throughout the day. I know my friends will probably think I look like I’m reaching nirvana, but it’s something! Gotta be grateful, right?

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My friends always laugh when I’m joyful over the fact a crush of mine says hi to me. I don’t let him know, oh no, I play it cool and say hi back, but as soon as he isn’t looking, I turn to my friends and repeat over and over again, “oh my goodness! He said Hi! Did you see that? Did you?” It’s like High School all over again.

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Remember, don’t stalk your crushes, don’t stare at them with predatory eyes. Just dream about them and see if you can be friends with them. If it’s meant to be, it’ll happen.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Rain? No problem! I have an umbrella…wait, you didn’t mention there’ll be wind!

I’ve given up. The only reason I choose to wear an umbrella is so my cell phone won’t get wet. Ontario has had beautiful weather lately…wait, sorry I was just dreaming. The weather has been warmer, but the rain and wind have come out to play. I get it, we do need rain and wind, sure, but umbrellas are pointless when they occur simultaneously.

 

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I walk a lot and perhaps it is my fault for walking in the rain, but my workplace isn’t too far to justify a drive or transit – Forgive me your Highness Mother Nature for trying to stay healthy – I just would like to come home from work without looking like a traumatized wet cat whose hair looks like it’s been electrocuted by the power of all demons.

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Umbrella size does not matter, I have small, medium, big, giant umbrellas, and the wind will often find a way to destroy them, blow them away, hit me with them, and make me look like a fool in the middle of the street (how did you do it Mary Poppins?). Not to mention passing drivers who can clearly see there’s a puddle in front of them (after seeing the car in front drive through it), on a residential street, and seem to have no consideration of pedestrians. They speed up just to make a fast turn. Seriously, how do they know I love getting splashed by passing speeding cars?

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I know I’m from rainy Vancouver, but please Mother Nature just give me a break :(. I don’t mind the rain when it is warm and not windy, or at least don’t brutalize my umbrella! How am I supposed to live my life to the fullest, if my pockets are full of water? I like to end things on a positive note, and I am thankful I can afford the proper gear, but I feel for those who can’t. I’m going to look into donating rain jackets to those who need it. I encourage you to do the same :), or something similar. I’m not too familiar with charities here, so I’ll have to do my research.

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PS: I hope all of you are doing great :D.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Zone – A to Z Challenge

A to Z challenge final letter: Z

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Zone

I love my own space, and it is not news to those who know me. I do well with crowds, but only if I have enough space for myself. If I know you, you can be close to me, but if you’re a random stranger (and it certainly does not help if you reek) then it’s best not to come close. I’ve always been this way and unfortunately, I can’t change it. I’m sorry, I just don’t like random people rubbing against me. I love to give hugs, so if you receive a hug from me, you know you are in my comfort zone :p. I don’t know if it’s a defensive mechanism, paranoia, or just a natural annoyance, but I can’t seem to change it, so I have accepted it. I do like to get out of my comfort zone, but I don’t like my space being overrun. You can say there is a bit of paranoia (I prefer to call it being alert), after all, whenever I walk alone in the evening, I am equipped to defend myself against creepers (it’s not like I live in an unsafe area. In fact, it is very safe, but you never know, right?).My word of advice, be cautious, respect your zone, and be sure that others do so, as well. Our world today is not as safe as it used to be, and we need to be aware of that. Live life, get out of your comfort zone once in a while, and do not be afraid to stay in it if you must.

And this my friends is the last post for the A to Z challenge :). It’s been a lot of fun, and I hope you enjoyed them and learned something!

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤