Poetry: We Are

We are dry leaves

struggling to survive

we stop, we admire,

we are stopped by malicious glares.

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We stumble walking in worn shoes,

allowing pressure to push us down

we cannot stop, we want to,

we are silenced by the voice of aggressors.

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We escape from their clannish,

but we turn and stare, and listen

we retract from our initial thoughts

we are crushed by their vile.

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We read our own phrases,

to remind us of our true faces

we think of when we’ll end

but until then, we can embrace our fulfilment.

 

Poetry: One could

 

Fortuitous words of solemn joy

through my eyes must abscond delightful thoughts

embed rough patches of solace within me

one could turn and blend desire inside.

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Nostalgic turn, and I am down

and I ascend to find my function,

grasping an idea that leaves me tired

one could turn and escape the dire site.

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With sparks that distract who I am

searching for my beginning slate

with anguish and turmoil and I can’t give in

one could turn and self-serve and leave their side.

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Expectation of a soul dipped in tranquil

and enriched with potent motivation,

carving a deserved fate with bare love

one could turn and stop and seal the failure.

Your motivation should come from within

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking (yes, I do think). I’ve been trying to find motivation elsewhere, but I have come to the conclusion that one should find it from within. Sure, you have family, friends, a significant other who inspire you everyday, but if you don’t succeed as an individual and live based on your own happiness, you’ll feel alone when others are not there to inspire you.

What am I living for? If I don’t start living for myself and then for others, I find I get down, because I’m not focusing on why I’m here and why I do the things I do. I started writing to heal from all the struggles in life, and I have lost that essence along the way, trying to please others without stopping to think about what makes me happy.

I haven’t diverted from my path too far, but it’s been a huge help going back to the main purpose. My main goal is to help others find themselves through my writing. The thing is, I can’t do that if I don’t remind myself of who I am.

I set a goal for this month; to focus on poetry and fitness. I keep trying to find motivation elsewhere, when I should be looking for it in the things I love to do. The key is not only to be happy, but to also be fulfilled.

Hopefully what I just said makes sense :p. I’m not even going to edit this post.

 

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

This is who I am. Is that so hard to accept?

I don’t kill, I don’t hurt others, I may not like being in crowds, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love people. I love animals, I love to walk, I love to dream, I love to write, I love to read, I love to stay still. I’m not a doctor, I’m not a CEO, I’m not a lawyer, I’m not an Engineer. I’m an artist, and that’s who I am. Is that so hard to accept? 

“You should be a CEO. You should be a lawyer. You should be a private investigator.”

“You should be,” is what I’ve heard so many times. But, how about who I want to be? Why can’t some people accept who I really am? If I’m not self-destructing or hurting others, if what I do makes me happy, why can’t they accept it? I’m not going to succumb to peer pressure and follow what others think I should do. I never have and I don’t plan to do it any time for the rest of my life. I’m going to follow my dreams and leave the legacy I was born to pass on. Money isn’t everything. Money isn’t going to buy me immortality, but my dreams are going to grant me everlasting happiness. Whenever my time comes, I want to close my eyes and smile knowing I achieved my happiness and inspired others. 

I have two choices, let others rule my life and become the woman I shouldn’t be, or realize my dreams and become the woman I was born to be. I choose the latter.

 

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

You are – A to Z challenge

A to Z challenge letter: Y

You Are

You are capable of greatness, if you set your mind on the right path. You are unique, and believe it. You are talented, not always in the same areas as others, but you have abilities that sometimes not everyone has, be proud of it. Sometimes it is difficult to be confident, I know it is for me, but take it one step at a time, and don’t be too hard on yourself. As this challenge comes to an end, I’m reflecting on all the things I wrote and I can’t believe I was able to do it! If I can write that much, so can you! Please, do not lose hope when you have nothing to write about. You know, we all need a moment of silence in our lives. It’s best to post something you’ll be proud of, than something you’ll regret. If you have nothing to post, how about sharing a video you found that meant something to you? Remember, You are in control and You are the only person who can share about who You are with others. Why not come up with your own small challenge? You’ll be surprised at the results 🙂

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Wisdom – A to Z challenge

A to Z challenge letter: W

Wisdom

Have you gotten your wisdom teeth removed? Not me, yet, but I’m going to have to in the next couple of years. But, that is not the wisdom I’m referring to – ha! Bet, you didn’t think I was going to have a deep moment for a second – The beauty of Wisdom is that everyone has a different positive input, but we all possess the ability to share it, only if we are confident. The thing is, sometimes we need to hear things we already know, but through someone else’s mouth, because during tough times, we might enclose ourselves in a cage of stubbornness and reject the truth that could save us. We know what’s good and bad for us, it is in our instinct, but we must surround ourselves with people of good influence, so that they may help us when our Wisdom is clouded.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Weekly Photo Challenge: Letters

Hello!!!! It’s Friday, which means another Photo challenge :). I have two photos to share with you. The first one is of letters written by me great aunt. The letters talk about the time she was neighbours with my late grandparents. It’s a perspective on her and their lives years ago. She’s still alive and I talk to her as often as I can, but whenever I get nostalgic, I read them. The second photo is of clouds, because the sky writes us letters everyday. Enjoy!

 

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Undo – A to Z challenge

A to Z challenge, letter: U

Undo

Sometimes I wish I had an ‘undo’ button, but wouldn’t life make no sense with it? If you could undo every bad moment, and every mistake, we would never move on from what we are meant to learn by making those mistakes. Of course, sometimes you may need that button, but it’s best not to have the temptation to use it all the time. How could you grow as a person if you keep rewinding what you don’t want to face? Our souls and bodies were created to have the ability to evolve and become better, but not perfect. It’s always good to go back and remember those painful memories, in order to use it to help someone or yourself, and withstand the chaos that surrounds us. If we ‘undo’ there is no moving forward. We’d be stuck in an infinite loop, and wouldn’t be able to realize our potential. Our reality would become a comfort zone, without the will to explore the greatness out there that we could be missing out. I wish I could undo my loved ones’ death, but I know I can’t, and it’s best to know that I can’t. Power can become your destruction, perfection can feel like your best friend, but be your worst enemy. There would not be a tomorrow, and we would miss out on new opportunities, and we would live in a past, and lose our present.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Poem – Visit

Why have you not visited me again

she has many times

I need to hear you one more time

Tell me to live in peace

she has many times.

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My emotions fall like dominoes

your presence can stop them

why can’t you visit me

she has many times

tell me, I want to understand

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Is it that you’re here, but I can’t feel you?

The essence of her perfume has appeared

but yours, just once, if anything

why can’t you visit me

and relive the seen horizons

and the pebbles thrown in the water

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Just once, I know you are fine

I need to know

you told me once you’d be here

is it because I really am okay?

why can’t you visit me,

she has many times

I live in peace

but say it to me one more time.

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Regret – A to Z challenge

A to Z Challenge letter: R

Regret

Live without regrets, that sounds simple, right? Well, it isn’t and it will never be. I do not regret events in my life as much anymore, because there is no point on dwelling in the past. However, there is one thing I would’ve loved to do more – talk to my grandma more. Whenever I mention this, my family and friends think I’m being too hard on myself. I talked to my grandma, a lot, but I feel I should’ve asked her more questions and found out more about her history. Of course, after she passed away I clung onto my grandpa and drained all the stories I could out of him. He was happy sharing how he met my grandma and what they did together. They met when they were teenagers and stayed together until she passed away at age 79, in 2007. It’s amazing how much detail my grandpa remembered, but it goes to show you that love does amazing things. Because I did live in regret after her passing, I tried to make up for what I could not do with her, by reaching to my grandpa. I do wish I could’ve heard his stories through her voice, though. I understand now that even though I wish I could’ve done more, she did leave a great legacy and I got to listen to it through my grandpa’s voice. Their love helped me believe in love again.

If you live in regret, try not to, it does hurt your mind and soul. Instead, learn from past mistakes and focus on the positive that came out of them. After my grandpa passed away last year, I did not regret anything. I spoke to him as often as I could during his last year, and hearing me gave him peace and he let me know that. I have to tell you, there were times when I asked my mum a hundred times if he really was sick, because whenever he talked to me he would sound like he did in his younger years. She told me he was excited to hear and see me and my voice made his pain disappear.

Our last goodbye:

Me: Love you, gramps!

Grandpa: Love you, too! Peace and Love!

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤