Daily Prompt: Singing the Blues

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Overall, I’m a happy person, even when I don’t want to admit it. It is not always easy for me to find a solution when I start singing the blues. But, first of all, I can’t sing, so I know it’s all metaphorical, but that’s already set me up for failure :p. It depends a lot on why such sadness was sung. If it’s because of my “day of the month,” and want to defeat the cramp demon, I just take a pain reliever and watch movies all day, and if I have to work, then I just go to work and suck it up.

That seems fairly simple, right? But, how about when sudden sadness kicks it? Yes, I do visit Robery Downey Jr.’s facebook page and drool at all his greatness, while I rock back and forth drinking tea, shedding tears of joy and pain all at the same time. That’s when my body decides to join in my frustration, and releases a war of a thousand cravings simultaneously stabbing me until I take charge. I binge on ice cream and potato chips, and if I didn’t hate myself enough at that moment, sometimes I go and buy a burger. You’d think that would help. Wrong. The next day I feel guilty for eating all the junk and become sad that I now have to workout a bit more than usual. But, then again, working out helps, right? Yes, unless your muscles are sore, because the food guilty made you try an intense class you haven’t done in a while. You get the idea, it’s a whole fire that you can never put out.

My solution now, is just to keep it simple and live with no regrets, as a method of avoiding singing the blues. If I feel like eating popcorn, I go and make popcorn and not worry whether it’s too early or too late to eat it. Basically, live your life in moderation and without hurting yourself and others. If you feel like going for a walk, then go for a walk. So what if it’s rainning? If it’s warm enough, get an umbrella and a jacket and go out. If you don’t have the right gear, go out anyway, let the rain fall on you and run back home and take a shower. I’ve lived in Vancouver, I know all about rain.

It’s about remembering how to enjoy life again. I listen to Enya when I write and when I feel down. I watch Lord of the Rings for inspiration. I read when I want to vent anger, because a lot of times you’ll look at other characters’ lives who have it a lot worse than you. Even if I don’t want to read, I grab the book and place it on my face. Be clumsy, be silly, be content. If it means hugging your stuffed animals, then go for it. I pray when I feel cheerful and hopeless, and if you don’t, that’s totally fine, but it works for me. Hey, even my Faith struggles at times and I don’t feel like acknowledging the guy up there. But, this is me. I can’t tell you how to live your life or give you a manual on how to overcome your own sadness.

My advice is do not prepare to be sad or for when you’ll become sad. Live your life right now, the way it feels right for you; laugh with friends, love everyone, go for the hike you’ve always wanted to do, eat that chocolate cake without feeling guilty (you know you want to). Live to the fullest so that you can remind yourself of the beauty in your life, when you feel sad. Everyday, life will bring different challenges and worries, and nothing will ever prepare you for them. I do so many things to cheer myself up, I have lost count. You grow everyday and you’ll deal with struggles in a different way. But, you have people who love you and it is important that you see this.

Bonus: I like to draw hearts a lot <3, and that cheers me up. Every status on my FB starts and ends with 3 hearts.

 

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

 

Your golden years

I went to see a short play called, “Old Times.” To summarize it, it’s about a trio of male seniors who meet every year, to catch up on their lives. It was funny, but insightful at the same time. Just last week, my friends and I were wondering, how in the future we’ll probably meet with our kids (if we have any). How do I see myself in the golden years? That is if I’m destined to live that long.

I hope to have accomplished all of my goals; like publishing books, having a family, meeting the wonderful Enya, and getting my picture taken with hundreds of penguins. My goals even go way into the afterlife, where I hope to meet Audrey Hepburn — unless, I end up building the first time machine. All I know is, I’ll be a happy old fart, who will hopefully knit penguin blankets for her grandchildren, and still dance to the Backstreet Boys.

How about YOU? 🙂

 

Of course! The world doesn’t rule me today

Taking laziness to a new level

My laziness is not part of my daily life, but sometimes I can’t help it. I’d like to call it ‘slowing down’, but I think we all know one would call that, denial. There are a few lazy moments where I’ve succeeded. Hey, at least I can say I’ve accomplished something on such a lazy day.

I wear headphones when I’m on my laptop, and when I need to grab something, I do take them off, except for today. I wanted to reach for something on my bed, and was too into my Enya songs, I tried to reach without taking my headphones off. Did I succeed? Barely! It’s a good thing my desk chair has wheels. They need to turn this into an Olympic sport! Okay, fine! I know, I won’t encourage this :p

I really don’t want to make this a HOBBIT (LOTR pun for habit) of mine. So, I promise I’ll take my headphones off next time.

How lazy were YOU, today?

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^^^ I’m just going to let the ocean do the swimming for me

Ps: This is the song I was listening to. Perhaps, you’ll sympathize with me :p

Of course! The world sort of rules me today!

Desertion of Reality

There are many ways I choose to escape from reality, as well as many reasons. My constant desire to detach from the norm doesn’t mean I don’t want to be part of this life. It’s just a different route I can take and if I choose, I can merge it with my reality.

Most of the times, my preference in movies and music do not coincide with others’. But, I guess that is kind of the point of escaping reality (unless I want to escape with someone). I can drink peppermint tea and watch an Audrey Hepburn movie, and be happy for the rest of the day. I can simply write while listening to Enya, suffer withdrawal as soon as I stop listening to her songs, and still be happy (I can always turn the music on again :p).

One of my favourite things to do is take photos, and pretend they’re a different world. It’s nice to dream about different places, where you can experience lots of adventures. It makes life more interesting.

I’ll share this photo I took a while ago. I decided to cut most of the house, and take a picture of the trees and the sun. There is something that enlightens my surroundings, when I imagine I’m somewhere else. It’s nice to take a moment to appreciate the good that is left in this world.

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I’m not saying I’m a happy little bunny all the time, not capable of sadness. I just like to make my own happiness sometimes :).

Of course! The world doesn’t rule me today 🙂 

 

 

 

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Writer’s Block – Who can say when I’ll shine. Only Time.

I’ve finally started writing my novel. I’m hoping to finish a draft by the end of this year, unless I let myself hit writer’s block, again.

Writing is rewarding yourself with printing your inner thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper (or MS word document). At the same time, it can also become a dreadful place, in which you’ll find ungrateful memories you never wanted to visit again. How do you overcome such thing?

The answer is clear, I’m not meant to. I’ve dug the deepest any artist does at one point in their life. I can only begin to explore and discover more about myself, and the message I have to send. It is terrifying, when you think about it. Why does my brain take me so deep, where the only way out is to confront the known and unknown? My brain does think it’s a piñata, or the gift that keeps on giving. But, if I ever want to finish this novel, I have to embark in unexpected journeys (like Bilbo Baggins).

Only failures can lead to success, and believe me, I have failed many times. I know I won’t like what I’ll find, once I unblock these demons that are stopping me from writing, but perhaps, I can use my good memories to pull me back up.

This is going to be a new long journey. I want to get rid of my fears, but at the same time I’m intrigued and I want them here, I want to face them and I want to conquer them; however, I don’t want to forget them. All these fears have made me who I am today.

I wonder what the outcome is going to be after I’m done. Only time can tell.

“Book of Days” and “Only Time” by Enya have become my theme songs, right now (yes, the title of this post is in reference to one of those songs). By the way, if they ever turn my novel into a movie, I want her in the soundtrack! She’s my favourite artist :). Well, besides the great Peter Jackson! I hope he does a movie based on my novel :). Hey, I can dream! But, I’m here to share my messages and to search for peace, not fame. Whatever is meant to be :).

 

Of course! The world sort of rules me today!