Undo – A to Z challenge

A to Z challenge, letter: U

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Undo

Sometimes I wish I had an ‘undo’ button, but wouldn’t life make no sense with it? If you could undo every bad moment, and every mistake, we would never move on from what we are meant to learn by making those mistakes. Of course, sometimes you may need that button, but it’s best not to have the temptation to use it all the time. How could you grow as a person if you keep rewinding what you don’t want to face? Our souls and bodies were created to have the ability to evolve and become better, but not perfect. It’s always good to go back and remember those painful memories, in order to use it to help someone or yourself, and withstand the chaos that surrounds us. If we ‘undo’ there is no moving forward. We’d be stuck in an infinite loop, and wouldn’t be able to realize our potential. Our reality would become a comfort zone, without the will to explore the greatness out there that we could be missing out. I wish I could undo my loved ones’ death, but I know I can’t, and it’s best to know that I can’t. Power can become your destruction, perfection can feel like your best friend, but be your worst enemy. There would not be a tomorrow, and we would miss out on new opportunities, and we would live in a past, and lose our present.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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Obscure Mentality – A to Z Challenge

A to Z challenge letter: O

 

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Obscure Mentality

We’re all guilty of having an obscure mentality at some point in our lives. Many times we don’t feel worthy of receiving well-deserved awards, and it is thanks to that lack-of-confidence demon that lurks when it shouldn’t. We must believe that it is perfectly fine to be rewarded for our hard work – hence the word itself – we work hard and therefore, we earn our own rewards. We make (I hope) an honest living and others notice when we’re genuine, and even though there are others who may look like they’re not happy for us, they really are. Do not be disappointed, but be proud and grateful for the good opportunities you receive.

We’re also guilty of having an obscure mentality towards our bodies and souls. We’re all unique and imagine what the world would be like if we all looked the same. Boring, right? You’re beautiful, and while not everyone will be attracted to you, that does not mean you’re ugly. To be honest, I would not like it if every guy out there fell for me, but that’s just me. In my opinion, the right person will initially be drawn to you by the way you look – and that doesn’t mean that only happens when you are wearing something special or ten pounds of make up – but because this person was destined to fall for you at any time. Remember, the right person will be impressed by the way you look, but will fall in love with you for your soul. Do not force anything to happen, nor chase the ones you like, because that may divert you from your true destiny.

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Is love too much to ask for?

The world’s lack of true love perforates my mind and soul. Have we become hermits from the fear of loving endlessly, or have we been too damaged that we’ve given up on love? 

Perhaps it is our desire to love, not because we want all the love for ourselves, but because we’re selfless. We become excited at the idea of sharing our passions, thoughts, and struggles, that we become blind to those who will end up inflicting pain, and shattering our hearts into a million pieces. How long can one withstand glueing these fallen pieces, until one collapses in despair, wishing for love to disappear?

What is it that scares people away? Is it that one is perhaps too good, it becomes intimidating? Or do they fear, they’ll give up their own desires? Is it that they/we are afraid of a perfect world; here there’s no wrongdoing, where there’s no pain, where there’s no despair?

These questions shouldn’t even be asked. But there’s hope, we’ll all find the love we’re looking for; romance, friendship, family, nature, the universe. 

Fear should not be in the same place as love, and love shouldn’t replace your past, present, and future. It is what helps us stick together, it is a band of unity and comfort that’s there to remind us, we mean something to someone, or that we mean good for someone or something. It shouldn’t be hard to love, and it should be simple to take a leap of faith. It becomes tiring wishing, praying, hoping that the love we share will reciprocate. 

Is love too much to ask for? Is an answer too much to hope for? 

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Gym class unpreparedness

While I’m home for a visit, I still find time to hit the gym (all the calories found in all the great food here, aren’t going be vanquished on its own). There a lot of classes I like doing, but I had not tried an intense class, until the other day.

My regular class was canceled, because the instructor was ill, so they decided to replace it with a newly introduced class, called Body Shred by Jillian Michaels. If you know Jillian Michaels, you know you’re in for the workout of your life —or death, depends how you want to look at it. As the instructor explained what the class was about, I thought to myself I had at least a few minutes to make a run for it — but, I didn’t, I pay for this gym membership, and I like to get my money’s worth. It is a 30-minute interval workout, that incorporates cardio, strength, and abs. It is very fast and intense. I decided to give it a try and challenge myself.

When I say “intense,” I mean INTENSE. We’re talking about a non-stop workout (you can grab water anytime, but you don’t have much time, so keep this in mind). Obviously, the instructor encourages you to take this at your own pace, and do ‘squats’ if you can’t follow a move, which is good. But as the first 5 minutes went by (they felt like 1 minute), I asked myself what possessed me to stay in the class. I still stayed, I was curious. It felt like it was going faster and faster, and I started to hear grunting (that’s when you know it’s tough). I looked in the mirror in front of me, and somehow everyone was able to keep smiling — I like to think it was because they were in so much pain, their smiles were paralyzed.

It was by the middle of the class, during an abs workout, that my muscles wanted to call it quits. I was so exhausted, I literally crawled to grab a sip of water (more like 20 sips). My body was determined to finish the class (even if it meant losing my courage), but my soul became a prize to be won between the heavens and hell.

I managed to survive, but I lied on the floor like a recently squashed tarantula. My soul was gone, its crying probably open the gates of Hell. But, once the angels saved me and made me snap out of it, I felt like I accomplished one of the most challenging workouts I’ve ever done. I felt really good afterwards, and told myself I would do it again. I do recommend it, you basically do a year worth of workouts in 30 minutes. The first workout will feel like you’d rather throw yourself into a pack of wolves, but I’m telling you, it will feel worthy in the end. I do recommend it!

Oh, and make sure you go to the bathroom before this class. Those tacos you had a few hours before, might make you charge and shoot your classmate behind you.

Of course! The world sort of rules me today!

 

 

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