Appreciating Life

I’ve been sort of M.I.A. this weekend, because I volunteered at the Cancer Relay for Life. It was an awesome event (they fed us, so that’s always good) and met so many survivors and others who persevere in the fight against cancer. May 27th marked my grandpa’s one year since he lost his battle with cancer at age 85. I volunteered in his honour. He defeated cancer once when I was little and was able to live a full and healthy life. Every day is a gift and I’ve heard from survivors how watching a sunset can be a victory, so yesterday I took a minute to appreciate the sunset. Life is short, so live without regrets.

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

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What is your heritage?

Today, I met a group of Dutch seniors (yeah I totally live life on the edge) who taught me how to say ‘hello,’ ‘how are you,’ and ‘thank you’. They were super friendly and made me want to learn Dutch. Will I ever? Probably not. I’m still on Intermediate French, so by the time I’m fluent and take on Dutch, I’ll probably be a goner. I do like to learn basic greetings in different languages, it helps me appreciate different cultures this way. What is YOUR heritage? Do you speak 1 or 10 languages?

I’m Hispanic, Spanish and French. I speak English, Spanish, basic French, a little bit of Italian and Portuguese (because they’re similar to Spanish). My grandpa’s step dad was Chinese, so I grew up eating Chinese food, but I only know how to say ‘hello,’ ‘thank you’, and ‘goodbye’.

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❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

Daily Prompt: Green-eyed Lady

They ask: We all get jealous from time to time — what wakes the green-eyed monster for you?

Daily Prompt: Green-eyed lady

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Oh, heck! I think I’ve just felt the wrath of the green-eyed monster. It is a foggy and rainy day and yes, I’m jealous of whatever city has warm and sunny weather :p. In all seriousness, I think us humans will always feel jealousy, there is no way to change it 100%; however, it is definitely possible to control it and lessen the reasons why we become jealous. When I was younger —a long time ago. I’m 26 now — most of my classmates had plastic multifunction pencil cases, which were extremely popular then. I wanted one. How could I not have one and my friends could, right? I was determined to get it and tried to convince my mum to get me one. My mum, being the good parent that she is, explained how the pencil cases were not very convenient due to lack of space, but I didn’t want to listen. During our trip to purchase school supplies for the next school year, my mum found the multifunction pencil case, and before we purchased anything, she showed me the one she recommended (bigger and practical) and the one I wanted. Are you sure you prefer the plastic one? She asked, hoping to convince me not to get it. Yes! Please! Please! She asked me a few more times, but failed to change my mind. Well, she ended up buying it. You’d think that she was spoiling me, that she bought it to shut me up (I was a chatterbox so I wouldn’t blame her), but she was on a quest to teach me a lesson (I was old enough for it).

When we got home I opened it, but I didn’t transfer my supplies from my old pencil case. Instead, I wanted to flaunt it at school. I didn’t want to brag, I just wanted to let everyone know I had one, I was cool like them. Sure enough, my classmates loved my new pencil case and before class started, I decided to fill it with my pencils and erasers. You should have seen me, proudly grinning at the fact I got what everyone had. Then, it faded. Wait, how come nothing fits in here, I thought. I’ll make them fit. I know what I’m doing. How come nothing fits in this THING. Ugh.

At the end of the school day, my mum picked me up, and I exited the school doing the walk of shame. How was your day? She knew something happened by the look of my face. Ok, but the pencil case didn’t work. Can we exchange it for another one? I whispered. Same one? She asked. No, the one you showed me. She told me there was a chance they wouldn’t do the exchange, after all I really wanted the plastic pencil case. But, we returned to the store and my mum asked me to do the talking. Yea, hmm, I..I..want to exchange this? I asked. Want? Mum stared. May I exchange this? I asked again. Luckily, they let me do the exchange. As soon as I got home, I transferred all of my supplies to the new pencil case, and I was happy. My mum told me that there are times we want to do what other people do or what they have, but I shouldn’t strive to obtain things because I want them and to follow others. In addition, I should find what works for me and what I like. Sure, I liked the pencil case, but only because my peers had it, and it was not useful in any way. But, she reminded me that we all live differently and should be grateful for what I currently have. Also that we don’t know what life has given other people, and we don’t know why they have certain things or why they lack. She mentioned kids who don’t even get a chance to go to school,or even have the supplies to help them.

That does not mean I suddenly stopped being jealous and lived in everlasting perfection, but it stuck with me and I did learn a valuable lesson out of a pencil case situation. I don’t remember if it was that year or the years after, but during one Christmas I received two of the same toy, and I clearly remember as soon as I received them, I told my parents I wanted to donate one of them. A few days later, we paid a visit to some children and I gave them the toy. I helped them assemble it and they looked very happy. It felt so good to give back and I haven’t forgotten it to this day.

Of course, I still get jealous of certain things, I’m not perfect and I don’t expect to be. However, I have learned to control certain aspects of jealousy and whenever I get jealous, I tell myself the Blessings I have in my life at that very moment. Yes, it is hard, because you also look into the past and wonder what could’ve happened or what you could’ve had, but we must remember that those thoughts damage your soul. Everyone is different, and we must find the key that helps up bring ourselves back to our reality. As much as that reality may be grey, we still have a light inside all of us. Instead of looking backwards, look forward to the next day in your life, not in others’.

 

❤ ❤ ❤ Love, Ellie ❤ ❤ ❤

 

 

Goodbye Vancouver

My Vancouver trip ended yesterday, and now I’m back in “sunny” Ontario! I always thought I love to overthink my life events, but I have realized it is simply me living life to the fullest, and being appreciative of what I’m given. This doesn’t mean I’m a happy camper all the time, but my life’s perspective have begun to change. I guess it is a good thing I try not to take things for granted now, but there is an overpowering feeling about becoming an adult. I’m 26, and I have passed by mid-twenties, and  it’s not like I changed my perspective as soon as I turned 26 — that’s not the type if wish you make when you blow the candles–but, it has been at least, a 3-year change.

It is a bit scary. Am I to think once I hit my 30’s, everything will start to go downhill? Will my hair go fully grey? I’d say probably yes to the latter. But, I have friends who are 30 and up, and they look happy and young. They definitely ease my fear of turning 30 (if I live to see it), and have inspired me to remain young at heart — mainly to get carded in my 30’s — and strive for a good future.

I know there is no point in worrying too much about ageing — I can always write about it — but it is my curiosity that makes me dig for answers. But, my trip has given me more than I could have asked for. I reconnected with my friends and saw my family — my sister and I played Mario Bros and towards the end of my trip, we didn’t die so many times! — I laughed more than I have the past one year, and felt so loved by everyone. I never realized I made such a positive in many peoples’ lives, so it was an eye-opener into who I really am, and how I am perceived. I’ve always wondered if I were to pass on right now, what kind of legacy would I leave. So, in a way it has given me a lot of peace.

I always give tons of credit to pilots who get me to my destination safely. The flight to Vancouver was great, but the flight back to Ontario was awesome! The skies were mostly clear, and the views were spectacular. During the flight ‘good guy’ pilot announced were going to hit a 10-minute turbulence — I almost fainted — but he changed altitude and the turbulence lasted about a minute or two! And to top it all, we arrived to Ontario about 15 minutes early.

I can’t ignore what happened to Malaysian Airlines. I was hanging out with my one of my best friends, the day before my flight, when I saw it on the news. It breaks my heart that this happened. I’m not afraid of flying, I’m just afraid of take-offs. So, seeing the news before I flew, wasn’t very reassuring. But, I hope the families get the answers and closure they desperately need. I have to mention this on my post, because I can’t pretend terrible things are happening in the world. The situation in the Ukraine is dire, and there is so much violence in this world. Sometimes, it is difficult for me to comprehend why people instill pain and fear. We’re supposed to protect each other and our planet. Life is a gift, so why are they misusing it? There really is NO point.

A lot of people ask, “Why pray?” Well, why not? There is so much evil in this world, we need to pray so people find peace in all this turmoil, so that hopefully, evil will vanish from this world. And if you don’t pray, that’s fine, too. As long as you join in the quest of amending the world, you can choose how you want to do it. Just remember, even when life gets tough, do not despair.

Here are some pictures from the flight. Look at the stunning view! Remember there’s still beauty in this world.

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PS: I’m working on a short story called, ‘Laura’s closet’. I thought about it during my trip :). I will hopefully post it this week!

Of course! The world doesn’t rule me today!